Bleak
In walk in to school
People look at my face
Expecting emotions
Looking away
In disappointment
A bleak look
All day long
No sorrow for
My lost
No thought on
My depression
Frowned slips through
Only momentarily
She said hi
I control my emotions
Always bleak
Don’t slip
I nod and
Keep walking easier
Than talking
I look back she looks hurt
But why
It was me she choose to
Break in half
I thought I was
Strong in my heart
Like a trunk on a forest floor
But she picked me up
Like a twig
Snap me in half
Then threw me back to the ground
And never looked back
So why does she look hurt
Why do I want
To go back
And tell her it’s ok
No matter
How hard
Or how strong
I might get hurt
I gave her my heart
I trust her with it
She broke it
How can it heal
Time after time
Wasn’t the first time
Enough
I catch her eyes
There filled with pain
I walk back
And tell her
It’s ok
Even do I know
It’s only to
Get my heart broken again
One day about us
Ill forget
No matter what the cost
Even If I can’t put a bleak
Look on my face and all
You see is sorrow and depression
Don’t blame me
I truly tried
I tried to fake it
If only for a while
I tried to smile
But I was fake
I tried to be plain
No emotion in my face
I tried to be smart
No thoughts on how to fight
My depression
Only gets stronger
When I catch your eyes
Because there is pain
Like you didn’t mean
To say
That you didn’t want me
That you were already in love
With some boy named josh
That you didn’t want to
Lose the friendship that we had
Neither do I
But how can we be friends
When you can cause
Me so much pain
When you made it
Hard by telling me
That it was ok
Couldn’t you have
Said instead
You hated me
Even if it’s not true
It would hurt
Less than pretending
I don’t love you
When my love for you
Passes the star
My love for you
Is greater than
The amount of sand
In every beach
Than the amount of
Galaxies in the universe
Than the amount
Of water in every ocean
How can I pretend?
For the sake of our friendship
But for now
I’ll try just don’t expect
Me to smile
Or keep a straight face
Expect to see tears leave my eyes
When you’re near
Expect to see me leave
The first few times
Were alone
Expect everything
But a smile on my face
Much less a laugh
I guess you can say you took
My soul away
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